Catfished by my twin soul
You ever been catfished by someone you know? Well, I catfished my ex-husband, Joshua, to find out whether or not he committed adultery. He catfished me years later for a very different reason, which I’m not completely sure of, but I have a pretty good idea. Although 19 years my junior, there was something he needed to teach me. Why he chose that particular time to open my mind somewhat baffles me. It was the moment I found peace within myself and set him free. And I guess it makes sense that it was after the new era began on December 21, 2012.
Twin Souls
This was a concept I had never heard of until 2013 courtesy of Tommy Harrison. During an IM chat with Tommy, he mentioned that I was his twin soul. You may wonder what a twin soul is and why I believe in it. No, it is not the same as a soulmate. It’s completely different and you can only have one. Before I continue, let’s take it all the way back to Plato and visit his theory.
Plato’s Split-Apart Theory
Plato was the first to reference that man is a part of one soul in which they are only half of. Plato described that the soul is “split apart” from an original ovoid. Each split apart half is a twin or “twin flame” of the other, sharing many of the same personality traits, characteristics, and appearance. Each half is an exact duplicate of the other, they descend into form and one assumes the masculine and the other the feminine.
Every person has a unique pattern and no other soul in the universe can claim this oneness with you except your twin flame. Because you are only born once, spiritually.
Who is Tommy Harrison
1 week or so after Tommy entered my life he was gone, just like that. He left me with some beautiful words.
I didn’t expect you to be you, and I’m no fool when it comes to my own self. I know that I will end up craving you in many ways in the future if we continue to touch base, and that craving would be just like a man stranded in the Mohave Desert craving water, with none to be found. Neither of us could afford to continually visit each other, and well, shit would be magical while together and gray while apart. And though I know you need me in ways you’ll never know, and I need you in ways I’ll never understand, it’s best we just cut things here, and move on before it’s too late. But of course, though your existence was short lived, I’ll always have you somewhere on my mind. Odd. But true.
5 days later I had a psychotic episode
Magnetic force
There are tons of blogs that will tell you about twin souls, but, let me just tell you from my own experience. The magnetic force pulling the two of you together is more powerful than anything you’ve ever felt or could ever describe. Space, time, people, age difference, even each other can’t keep you apart. I asked my mom why she never questioned my relationship with Joshua, although he was 19 years my junior. She said when it came to him, I was not going to listen. I wondered how she knew that because she never even tried to talk to me about it. I experienced my first psychotic episode while married to Joshua and I now understand that it was not by accident.
2 years after Tommy’s abrupt disappearance, during my 2015 episode, I was completely focused on my twin soul. The whole experience revolved around him. My family even said I was talking to him during the episode. I was like, “How do y’all know who I was talking to?”
Fast forward to 2017. Joshua came back into my life as a very positive force to guide me just a bit more. I told him all about Tommy Harrison and the closing letter he wrote me. I even asked him over and over again if he was Tommy Harrison. I questioned why Tommy entered my life at that time and Joshua’s answer was, “Maybe he taught you something you needed to know.”
So, a few months passed, and I decided to visit him on his 30th birthday, but just like Plato’s split-apart theory, which states, “Often the magnetism and likeness is so overwhelming the souls cannot emotionally handle the union.” And because of that, after only an hour together, he ran. We never even exchanged a kiss, but clearly, the magnetic energy was extremely powerful because during that hour I just had to touch him.
2 months later we exchanged several text messages about why the visit didn’t go as planned and there were a couple profound things said, but the one thing that stood out most is he said, “I forgot what being around you felt like.” So, I asked, “What does it feel like?” His reply, “Like being home.” That shit sends chills through me because that’s exactly how I feel around him.
February 2020, after solving yet another puzzle, which left me to conclude that Joshua was indeed Tommy Harrison and no doubt my twin soul, I decided to visit him again. The magnetism was immeasurable. We hugged each other as tightly as humanly possible and the way he grabbed my sweater while kissing me I knew he ached for me as much as I for him. Kissing him was like kissing myself. It’s weird, I know, but our taste was the same, our lips were the same, our passion was unmatched. We made love and it was supernatural. All he could say afterward was, “Wow!”
It hurts like hell not to be with someone who’s connection to you is more powerful than all the magnetic energy in the Universe but in his words, “Sometimes love is best left alone.”
