Feeling is the key
2024 was a year of discouragement for me. Everything I once believed I could accomplish, I began to doubt. I went to an extremely discouraging writing workshop then I read an even more discouraging book that stuck with me.
I’m now in the process of filling my mind with uplifting thoughts. I am now believing that I can dream big and accomplish major goals. The difficult part is feeling how I will feel once I achieve my goals. Honestly, I just don’t know how I will feel. I imagine I will feel peace, relief, joy, and most of all freedom.
I know where I went wrong. I stopped my “I am” statements because I read a book that made me doubt them when I saw for myself that they work. I stopped listening to motivational videos in the morning. I became complacent. My weight loss came to a screeching halt in April. I began eating lots of candy, ice cream, and Doritos. My cholesterol went up and I shortened my workouts.
I must begin living with intention again. I have to think about things that make me feel good. I will share a secret with you guys. I’m strictly going to London with the intention of meeting a British man whom I will fall madly in love with. What happens after that? Do I move to London, maybe. But that rain, I don’t think I can handle the rain.
I’ve gotta say I do think I should lower my dosage of Ziprasidone. I do feel like I’m a bit numb and I’ve lost my passion to change the world. I need to be brave. I’ve been living in a bubble in Evanston. I need to experience more in life. I need to see new things and meet new people. I need to open myself up.
I watched The Secret again and it really did motivate me. It’s old but it’s so effective. It teaches exactly what Neville Goodard does. Feeling is the key, so I’ve got to overcome the lack of feeling. I want to feel joy, excitement, fulfillment, inspired, and motivated. I want something to look forward to everyday.
These are the things I want now:
To fall in love with a debonair British man
To be a #1 New York Times bestselling author
To earn $250,000 in a year
To live in a spacious home with tons of closet space
How will I feel when all those things happen? I’ve got to feel those feelings now. As much as we love to hate The Kardashians, me included. Kim knew exactly what she wanted, which was to be rich and famous and voila. I guarantee you she imagined what it would feel like to be rich and famous. While she was traipsing around with Paris Hilton, I’m sure she pictured that it was her. I need to emulate that behavior to get what I want.
Now is the perfect time to begin.
