Manifestation

This is the year to manifest all my desires and I’m not wasting any time. Last month I proved to myself that I can get what I want by using imagination and feeling. I’ve been looking at this chocolate brown mink jacket on Pinterest for years. I was finally determined to find it. I found something similar on Poshmark for $200 so I bought it. Turns out it was already sold so the seller sent me a refund. I started my search again. I found another one on Poshmark for $400, which was out of my price range, but I was going to buy it on pay day. I live in a neighborhood with lots of vintage shops. A new store opened maybe two months ago. After my workout I decided to just pop into the store to see what they had and voila there was a chocolate brown mink jacket that fit perfectly and cost $200. I bought it on the spot.

Next, I used my imagination for losing my last twenty-six pounds. Clearly, I haven’t lost them yet, but I will. As mentioned in my previous post I lost no weight all year and gained nearly three pounds. I know it doesn’t sound like much but that’s how the weight starts to return. I came across this calorie counting app called Lose It that I absolutely love. I also stepped up my workouts. Since the last upgrade on my Apple watch, it now shows how intense my workouts are. Usually, they are moderate, but I recently began jogging and a couple times my intensity was hard. I’d like to keep it that way. I’m enjoying the feeling of being sore after my workouts.

I’ve got a few plans for 2025. I’ve got a trip to Atlanta on the schedule for June and London in September. Might be adding a few more spots in throughout the year. 2025 is the year I will enter a healthy, romantic, monogamous relationship and find my Jason Statham. I don’t even know if that’s what I really want but I’m just putting it out there.

I got a new position at work which has put me in a much better mood so I’m able to feel good, which is so important. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist recently and I’m still trying to decide if I should lower my Ziprasidone dosage. For now, I decided to keep it the same but I’m still considering it. I’m a little afraid to do so but I have to start feeling again.

My book proposal is complete, and today I started the process of querying agents. During my search for agents on Publishers Marketplace I came across QueryTracker, which is a website that helps authors find literary agents. I expect to find an agent who is passionate about my story and who will get me a major book deal with Flatiron Books.

I’m focusing on my drive in 2025! How about you?