Intermittent fasting and biplor

I really want to start intermittent alternate day fasting, but my illness won’t allow it. Firstly, I must eat at least 300 calories with my meds in the evening, which means I can’t skip a day of eating. Secondly, if I don’t eat, I can’t sleep, which will likely cause a manic episode, which could potentially end in psychosis and a trip to the hospital. No one wants that. I want to induce autophagy, but you must fast for at least 24 hours, a bit longer is better. I could totally do it. The less I eat the less I want to eat.

I know I’m obsessed with being thin but thus far I’ve been somewhat healthy. Lately though, I’ve been making horrible food choices, and my cholesterol is even a bit high. Also, I have not been restricting my calories, which is why I want to fast. I expect to gain at least 3 lbs. this month. I’ve got a week and 2 days to rein it in. To counter the potential weight gain I’ve recently started 16:8 where you have an 8-hour eating window and 16 hours of fasting. It's effective, but I still exceed my daily calories of 1,300 per day. If I could skip a day of eating, I could have a bit more food on my eating day.

I watch old Rachel Sharp videos on YouTube of her intermittent alternate day fasting journey. I also watch Super Skinny Me, a British documentary on YouTube about two normal weight journalist who attempt to get to a size 00 in five weeks. They try everything from the lemonade diet to the protein shake diet with 2-hour daily workouts. I wish I could work out for 2 hours, but I don’t have the stamina.

Lately I’ve been drinking laxative tea at night in the hopes that I won’t gain weight. I’ve only lost 2.2 lbs. this year and I’d like to lose at least 15 more lbs. I probably need therapy at this point to determine why I’m so obsessed with being thin. Everyone says I don’t need to lose more weight, but my arms and legs are still too big. I’m afraid I can’t get rid of my stomach because I stretched it out too far. I do want to get AirSculpt but who has the budget for that.

If you do want to lose weight, without my level of obsession, I highly recommend intermittent alternate day fasting. There are so many health benefits and it’s highly effective. You will be losing fat with this method.

My sister and nephew came by yesterday so we could take some things to Good Will. My nephew noticed my protein shakes and wondered when I started drinking them. I told him the other day because I’d like to do the protein shake diet. My sister asked why I was doing a diet. I told her I wanted to lose 15 more lbs., and you’d swear someone stabbed her by her extreme reaction.

My family may think 141 lbs. is a good weight and I should stop losing more weight but my BMI of 24.2 is on the high end of the BMI chart and I’d like to fall right in the middle. A healthy weight for my height is between 107.8 lbs. – 145.6 lbs. There’s nothing wrong with me wanting to weigh 125 lbs. I know people say you can’t go by the BMI chart, but they’re wrong. Doctors certainly go by it and if it’s good enough for doctors it’s good enough for me.

It's your life and your choice and I choose to be thin.